Randomness

I've been thinking about random things that have happened in my life and how my response has influenced their effect.

When I was a kid someone told me about destiny and fate which completely flummoxed me. What? Whatever I do, it's not my choice, something or someone already figured it out? So I'm wearing this green t-shirt because I was always going to wear it?

When you're a kid you have lots of time to think about these things and I thought myself into lots of knots until I decided there was no point, it was just an idea. How the hell would they know anyway?

So, randomness. I find it interesting that a lot of where I am now, is as a result of some interesting series' of events.

That I did a degree was down to a friend lending me the newspaper with the clearing options, rather than  applying when everyone else did.

My first career change was due to sitting down next to someone in a theatre dressing room.

My latest career change began when I shared a table with someone at a exhibition.

Getting into jive dancing began as a random conversation with my parents' neighbour and became a very important period of my life where I met some fabulous people, had some lovely dances, got to escape the  daily grind and most importantly kept my sanity levels in check.

I have a couple of friends from my dancing days who I just got chatting to whilst waiting for a good piece of music and a decent partner and we are still in touch.

My relationship has benefited from some randomness. Early on I walked away from it. But a couple of days later I was on my way to work when I had a "Sliding Doors" moment. I was about to go through the ticket barrier, when I felt ill, so not wanting to risk being ill on the train, I went home and worked from there. Later I got a text from him saying that there was a family crisis and as he was on his own, so I suggested he come over so he wasn't on his own. After talking through the crisis, we discussed us. Two years on, we are getting married.

Interestingly I attended a course recently where he took the whole idea of "randomness" destiny and fate a whole lot further. However, this time this theory was backed up with quantum physics. So now I'm back to where I was as a kid in the "am I doing this because I want to or because I was always going to" stakes. The key difference is I've learnt not to over think it and enjoy the ride.

JFDI

You know how ideas work really well in your head. You figure it all out, imagine how cool it's going to be and then hit a snag. Where to start. Then when to start. Then, what if it doesn't work... And before you know it you've hit the procrastination wall, got paralysis of analysis and signed up to over thinkers anonymous.

And nothing happens.

And you beat yourself up.

And then one day you stop worrying - well maybe not so much - and just make a start.

And you don't even trot out the proverbs or get the Barefoot Doctor book out.

Well that's the aim.

And let face it who really cares beyond your mistaken belief that everything you do should be perfect, right first time.

So let see how this works out.